As I sit and contemplate which Saturday night movie to watch on tv, I wonder where my social life has gone, and did I ever even have one?
Oh yes I did...I really did.
Call me a party animal but I had my time..just look at these!
The Hubbster and I have been together for 24 years. Since I was 20 years old.
We have had such good times, and crazy times.
Our twenties was our time to party. Lots of friends, nights out, drinking and partying.
We did it all.
Our thirties slowed down a bit. We moved states, we got married, birthed 3 babies (me not him) and slipped easily into middle age.
Oh the humanity!
When I was 20, the thought of someone being in their 40's was so foreign to me, it was laughable.
They're so old.....I"ll never be THAT old.
And yet, here I am, mid 40's, married with kids, a farm, nearly a house and a non existant social life.
I do have one if you include the kids and their "stuff". Their dancing, their football, their singing, their gym and their skatepark.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.
I've become quite reclusive since moving out of town. I'm like one of those rare birds, which stirs up a frenzy of interest when I am sighted.
I think it's because I'm just so tired from work, from the kids, from responsibilty and just life in general.
I'd much prefer to stay home than fight for taxis at midnight.
It doesn't mean I don't miss my friends, because I do. We all lead different lives and trying to catch up on a night where we can all be there is almost impossible.
Our last Mothers Group get together was planned so long in advance it was ridiculous but it was the only way to ensure we could all make it.
We are trying to go out for dinner soon and I'm so looking forward to seeing my friends and getting dressed up and eating dessert.
I've had my share of crazy times, of nights out drinking and dancing, and causing trouble which I'll admit I was guilty of as a wild child, but my focus now is on my family and being a Mother.
I think it has alot to do with the fact that I haven't drank any alcohol for over 3 months. And I hate to admit that for me, drinking was always a given when out having a good time.
So why go out, and stay sober? Where's the fun in that?
Now I'd much prefer to stay home, and entertain friends when The Money Pit is finished, and maybe even enjoy a nice glass of wine, without the stress of having to fight through the crowds to get a taxi at the end of the evening...
Now which movie will I watch tonight........?