Okay. I'm putting it out there. On my blog. There's no turning back now.
I'm not fit.
I need to lose weight.
I'm so tired.
My back is sore.
I feel unhealthy.
I never used to feel like this. I was a gym junkie before moving to the farm.
That was 4 years ago.
I was fit, strong, so strong, motivated, lean, muscly and happy.
Because I was doing weights, and spinning, on a bike, my back was good.
Now it's not. And that's most of the problem. I've stopped exercising because my back is so sore.
In the words of my specialist :- "That disk is buggered. The one above it looks dodgy as well"........
I'm not supposed to walk uphill, or lean forward or pick up anything heavy. It's not a great position to be in.
BUT I can do something about it and it starts with.....motivation....and willpower....and self control, things I sadly lack.
So this is my plan.
Firstly, I'm going to post this on my blog. So I have no excuses.
And feel free to scold me whenever you want to...
Secondly, I'm going to stop sabotaging myself.
Enough of the "Farmers Wifey, if you give up coke zero you can drink heaps of alcohol", or "Farmers Wifey, if you give up alcohol, you can have several chocolate biscuits a day" or even "Farmers Wifey, if you don't eat junk food all week you can have a binge on the weekend".....
Seriously, there is no way I'll see or feel any different if I play these mind games with myself.
I want to feel like I did before. I want to feel the sweat. I want this:-
So my plan starts tommorrow....a little experiment, if you will.....
I'll weigh myself, and post it here... edit 73.6 kg
For the first week, I'm giving up (oh the humanity) alcohol, soft drink and bread - my three favourite things, and I'm going to eat more protein, more salads and drink more water.
I want to see what the difference is..on the scales, and how my clothes are fitting.
Then after the first week, I can find the path I want to go.....
I'm not so worried about exercise at this stage, I want to see how diet plays a part, as the ratio of diet/exercise confuses me.
I want to feel like I did before. And I want to be prepared for this....just in case......