July 23, 2012

Where I'm at. Honestly.

So where am I, right at this moment in time?

I'm worried and stressed about my son.  And his as yet unconfirmed diagnosis.

We have one more visit to Brisbane next week where he will have a camera endoscopy, and I'll probably have (another) cry.

Hopefully then we will have some direction and a plan for the future.

I'm nearly at the end of my patience rope......we have 12 weeks to finish the house.

Then I'll find my slow cooker.  It's in storage in a box somewhere.

This means that it will be 4 years that we have lived in our shed.  I truly can't believe that.

I got a letter about my next mammogram.  Which just reminds me how old I am (insert sad face).

The Hubbster gave me a gym membership for my birthday in May.

I've been once.

I drive past the gym every day and I know I should go.

I just know I'll feel better.

I've been drinking too much wine, to cope with the stress.  My eczema has flared up on my fingers, from stress/too much wine.  I've been scratching til my fingers are raw and bleeding.

I'm really looking forward to the Olympics.  I love the opening ceremony and the gymnastics.

I do not enjoy the swimming.

I haven't shaved my legs for about a month.  This is on the bottom of the important list of things to do after getting my son well and moving into The Money Pit.

Thank God it's winter and I'm not wearing shorts or I'd be scary.

I'm seriously considering going to the US for BlogHer '13 next year.  It would combine my two passions which are blogging and America.

Could I really do this?  If I start saving money now in my little pink piggybank, I think I could.

I'm loving the photoadayJuly challenge, courtesy of Fat Mum Slim.  I love each day, and the creativity I am feeling.

I'm still trying to figure out exactly what my blog "niche" is.  Is it stories about country life, or is it a humour blog where I post about the crazy things my kids do, or could it be a blog about houses and decorating?

I've decided that my blog is all of the above.  A personal blog about my life and what surrounds me.

I'm happy with that.  I hope you are too x

26 comments:

brismod said...

I've been thinking about you and your son. I hope you find answers when you next visit Brissie...not knowing is such a stressful stage.
And if I had a gym membership at the moment, I'd probably drive right past the gym too! xx

Prue @ Modern Nomads With Kids said...

I took a look at myself in the shower this morning and cringed. I also have hairy legs! I actually stood there for a while wondering if there were other women out there feeling the same as me. Looks like there certainly is. I hope things improve for you all soon. Having an unconfirmed diagnosis is tough, let alone watching your son go through it all.

Prue @ Modern Nomads With Kids said...

I took a look at myself in the shower this morning and cringed. I also have hairy legs! I actually stood there for a while wondering if there were other women out there feeling the same as me. Looks like there certainly is. I hope things improve for you all soon. Having an unconfirmed diagnosis is tough, let alone watching your son go through it all.

♥.Trish.♥ Drumboys said...

Thinking of you and the worry for your son, hope you get some answers.
I hope get into your gorgeous home very soon .

I can't imagine living in a shed for 4 yrs. we are just making our shed more home like after 6 months since we want get much done the next year.

DO it , use the gym Michelle - you can do it and you will feel better for it.

Farmers Wifey said...

I'll get to the gym, and I'll shave my legs. Truly I will, maybe not this week, but the next.x

All For Love said...

Oh darlin', you have so much going on right now... I can kind of hear the stress in your words.
My legs are super hairy too... I just resign myself to that during Winter.
I'm looking forward to the Olympics too.
Don't think I've ever mentioned this before, but I LOVE your blog header, gorgeous!
xo

Mum on the Run said...

You're amazing - and your blog, well it's just an extension of you.
Be kind to yourself - and your hairy legs.
Thinking of you - and your boy.
xxxxxxx

Farmers Wifey said...

Oh you guys, see YOU are the reason I blog...xoxo

Anonymous said...

Although you are feeling overwhelmed by things at the moment, the most heart warming thing to read is that you still have hopes, plans, ideas for the future. Go easy on yourself Hun. Slowly tackle one thing at a time that you want to get on top of andim sure you'll start feeling like yourself again soon.

sevencherubs said...

Michelle you are doing so well handling everything that is coming your way. You are super woman with so much patience and are an awesome Mum. I hope you can find some extra time soon to put yourself first a little more and make it into the gym - you will feel so much better for doing so. Schedule it in and make it happen - even once a week. Love you and thinking of you xx

greenthumb said...

Shaved my legs last weekend think I blocked up the drain hole, I hope you fide the answers for you son soon.

PetaJo said...

I haven't shaved my legs either... and I don't have an excuse! So I think you're doing great!

And don't try to pigeon hole your blog too much.

It's nice that you have a mix!

Peta-Jo..xx

Farmers Wifey said...

Advice taken xox Thank you lovelies x

Fiona said...

Am so sorry that you're having a tough time. I think the good health of our children is always top of any wish list for any parent.
Wishing you answers and better days ahead.
And your legs ... fageddabowdit.

Maxabella said...

ALL of the above!

You will get there if you want it, hon.

I hope you hear about your boy soonest. It's so nervewracking not knowing these things.

I can't believe it's been 4 years. It's amazing what happens while you're busy making other plans.

x

Dream House Trish said...

Oh Michelle I love your blog just the way it is, with all the aspects of life thrown in & your humor to go with it. Its hard to focus when your babies are unwell & thats ok. Good luck with getting a diagnosis ASAP. I am a huge fan of the healing benefits of coconut oil, pop some in your food each day for some internal healing & rub some into that eczma as well, it may help.
Thinking of you & your lovely family xxxx

Norlin said...

I do hope they find out what to do about your son's health. And, the gym...well, I've only been in 3 times since I joined. I know I need to get back in there, tone up, and yes make me feel a bit healthier, but somehow always find an excuse not to. As for your blog, hey, it's all of the above. Love reading everything you post on there. xx

LisaW said...

I wouldn't worry about putting your blog into a niche...it can be whatever you want it to be!

Sending you my love and positive thoughts for your son's diagnosis. I can't even begin to imagine how stressed and worried you must feel.

Denyse Whelan. said...

Do you know why I read your blog?
I need a fix of Michelle's stories.
You bring such a wonderful mix of LIFE.. Yes, that, in the shed, out in the country, waiting waiting waiting, pride in the kids, worry about the kids...
Michelle I LOVE you and YOU are the woman I loved seeing in Melbs
Denyse xxxx

Denyse Whelan. said...

Do you know why I read your blog?
I need a fix of Michelle's stories.
You bring such a wonderful mix of LIFE.. Yes, that, in the shed, out in the country, waiting waiting waiting, pride in the kids, worry about the kids...
Michelle I LOVE you and YOU are the woman I loved seeing in Melbs
Denyse xxxx

Denyse Whelan. said...

Do you know why I read your blog?
I need a fix of Michelle's stories.
You bring such a wonderful mix of LIFE.. Yes, that, in the shed, out in the country, waiting waiting waiting, pride in the kids, worry about the kids...
Michelle I LOVE you and YOU are the woman I loved seeing in Melbs
Denyse xxxx

Farmers Wifey said...

I love all of you guys....thank you for your kind comments..this girl really needed a step up today xo

Anonymous said...

Here's something to make you smile....my legs took 3 - yes three!! razors to shave on Sunday. After a six month hiatus - the start of tennis has pushed me into action.

Best of luck with everything - someone said to me the other day. Worrying is like sitting in a rocking chair. You'll rock and rock and rock but you'll never get anywhere.

Just one foot in front of the other, one breath at a time x

Kelley @ magnetoboldtoo said...

Come and join my niche.

Personal awesome blogger.

Love your face off. Xx

Farmers Wifey said...

@ mk, I love these hairy leg stories, go you !!!!

@ Kel, I'll join, and you will lead the PABloggers.....xoxo

Unknown said...

Hey, following you back! I know what it's like to have a sick child! I don't know your situation, as I just clicked here tonight after you followed me... but I had a sick baby for ten months (which is also on my Blog) and I know something of having a health challenge. I hope the news is good for you!!!! As for Blogher, thinking of going too! :)