July 17, 2012

The Road.


I was driving home from town last night, along our country road.

My eyes were fixed on the centre, unbroken lines that curve and straighten, guiding me home.

I thought about how my life is mirrored in these unbroken lines.  Sometimes, they are straight, life is good and everything has a cherry on top.

Don't we all want it to be this way?

When the lines curve, my life seems off centre, something happens or takes over and all I want is for the lines to become straight again.

To be back on track. 

To be able to breathe.

Right now, there is a huge curve in The Road, one that is overwhelming and emotional and I really don't know when and how the lines will straighten.

When your child is unwell, when there are many unanswered questions, your mind wanders and the fear of the unknown takes over.

I'll bring you the story, when I can.  When I'm ready to share and release the built up anxiety and sadness and confusion that I feel.

Until then I'll watch the lines on The Road, and hope that they straighten and safely take us home.

31 comments:

edenland said...

Love to you. A lot. Xxx

•´.¸¸.•¨¯`♥.Trish.♥´¯¨•.¸¸.´• said...

Thinking of you Michelle and I hope you get easy answers for your boy.

PinkPatentMaryJanes said...

Oh love, am thinking of you and your child. Sending love and well wishes xx

Phenomenal Woman said...

Thinking of you and sending my love. Be kind to yourself xxx

Workingwomenaus said...

Thinking of you x

E. said...

I hope that your road straightens out, soon. All the best for you and your family.

I hope they are answers coming.

Super Sarah said...

Sending you love xxx

4 kids, 20 suitcases and a beagle said...

One foot in front of each other. That's all you can do. xx

LceeL said...

I always hated it when my boys were ill - I felt as though somehow I had failed - like I was supposed to protect them from illnesses. All the big bumps and bruises, the stitches and fevers, all just served to make me feel less than a good father. I don't know what your son's illness might be - I hope it's nothing too serious, long term, or life threatening - but no matter what, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your son.

Farmers Wifey said...

Well you guys have me teary again x

Thank you for your kind words, my son was crying last week at hospital and I felt like my heart was being ripped out....

I will share, of course, but I just can't, not yet xoxoxo

brismod said...

I've been noticing all the visits to Brissie on your Facebook. I'm hoping only good things for you and family. xxx

Mum on the Run said...

Oh Michelle.
My heart hurts for you.
There's nothing harder for a Mum. Nothing.
xxxxxx

Daisy, Roo and Two said...

SO much love to you right now Michelle. xxx

Farmers Wifey said...

Thank you girls, it's certainly putting EVERYTHING into perspective xo

Mama of 2 boys said...

Oh gosh, I am so sorry to read these words... as beautifully put together as they are.
Sending you positivity and hugs xo

Dreaming said...

It sounds like you are going through a really tough time right now. I'm praying for smooth, straight roads ahead!

Jacana said...

Wishing you kilometers of straight lines.

Ullhärvan said...

My thoughts are with you and your family!

sophie...^5 said...

Be oh so careful on the road and don't go over the lines...the lines guide and lead you...keep strong and as positive as you muster. Spill everything when you are ready.
Ron

Norlin said...

Hon, stay strong. It's a hard road with blurry lines, but we'll be there to hold your hand. xx

AlyceB said...

A beautiful post, Michelle. Just stay within those lines and they will straighten out soon enough xx

Desire Empire said...

Here's to more straight lines coming your way. Sorry to hear you are struggling.
Carolyn

River said...

Crossing my fingers that everything works out well.

Farmers Wifey said...

Thank you, my most treasured friends xoxo

Denwise aka Denyse Whelan said...

I love that analogy but not that you are wrestling with dread and fear. Much love to you Michelle.. You are one very special mum and lady xxx

Farmers Wifey said...

Thank you Denyse xo

greenthumb said...

What a sad and confusing time it must be for you all at the moment, sending best wishes.

Farmers Wifey said...

Thanks lovely!

Kakka said...

I am sorry to hear that you have this hanging over your head. Having a sick child is one of the most stressful things about parenting, even worse if it is not clear what the issue is. While I hate that you are going through this, as Denyse said, what a great analogy you use in this post. Wishing you lost of straight lines really soon. Hugs from Perth xxx

Farmers Wifey said...

Thank you so much xo

Kristyn said...

Be strong. This too shall pass.